All my life my weight has been an issue. But losing weight was hands down the most rewarding thing I have ever done!
When we left primary school, we did the whole signing the shirts thing, and people wrote “oink” on the back of mine. Kids can be mean but I genuinely think that was wayyy over the line! I was only about 10 years old then and that stayed with me. That reallyyy affected me. I remember being at secondary school and how uncomfortable I would feel getting changed before PE in front of the other girls. Feeling like they were looking at me and judging me.
My weight became more of an issue when I moved in with my boyfriend (he’s now my hubby). I am a pear shape so I carry my weight on my bum and hips. When we started dating, I was a size 12 on the top and a 14 on the bottom. But at my heaviest, I was a 16 on the top and was still somehow squeezing myself into my size 16 jeans. At that time, I weighed 14 stone 9.5 pounds and a 5ft5, according to the BMI, I was obese. I remember when hubby and I bought some electronic scales and I weighed myself for the first time. I was mortified, not gonna to lie! Hubby and I both thought that the scales were broken, so he got on, and they were accurate for him. I remember this wave of the reality hitting me. I felt hidious, ashamed and embarrassed. I couldn’t believe that I had been so oblivious to how I looked.
The next day, the 1st of April 2015, I downloaded MyFitnessPal and tracked everything I ate. Day in, day out. Including Christmas Day and my birthday. And after about 9 months, I lost 5 stone. Then in the 3 months after that, I lost another half a stone.
I currently weigh 9 stone 2 pounds and I couldn’t be happier. Losing weight has changed me. Before I lost the weight, I didn’t have a full length mirror in the flat…now I do! I honestly think that I didn’t want to see myself. I was protecting myself from seeing how I looked. I am so much more comfortable in my own skin now. My interests have changed. I never used to be interested in fashion, makeup or cosmetics. And I never would have had the confidence or self-esteem to start a blog!
To anyone reading this who is currently on their weightloss journey, just remember this one thing…Weight is just a number. Weight has nothing to do with your worth. If I can do it, you can!